X Love Me x Hate Me X

cutmein2pieces @ 2004-10-31T15:44:00

2004-10-31T20:48:52Z

Happy Halloween! Weeeee doggy!!

Friday, I worked at Creeper's with Brittany. Twas' interesting. The guy who cut my hair works there. He gave me his number and said if i wanted him to cut my hair again to call him. I met some cool people there. Brittany hit herself in the head with a pole. lol. We didn't get home until like 4:30. We went to Steak and Shake afterwards.

Saturday, I slept until 2. Came home around 3 and went to Jessie's house at like 7. We rented scary movies. lol. It was great.

Today, I came home and carved a pumpkin and later me and brittany are supposed to go to zac's and hang out with him and duffin. yay.

And my pumpkin is the shit!!

cutmein2pieces @ 2004-10-28T00:27:00

2004-10-28T04:35:22Z

You represent... hope.
You're quite a daydreamer and can be a hopeless
romantic. You enjoy being creative and don't
mind being alone at times. You have goals, and
know what you want in life... even if they are
a little far fetched.

What feeling do you represent?
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You're a Winter. You very much enjoy your time
alone but do like other people's company
sometimes. You just need your space. You have a
few priviledged friends who saw past your
colder exterior to find the true you. You can
have pretty bad mood swings (though you hate to
admit it) so you could be soft one second then
storming around the next! But over all, you're
a very pleasant person once people take the
time to get to know you. You're a good friend
for in-depth talks. You're very talanted when
it comes to creative things.(If you can't see
tje pics, go to my homepage and look near the
bottom and find your result)

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cutmein2pieces @ 2004-10-27T22:19:00

2004-10-28T02:23:48Z

I was watching the lunar eclipse. That was rad. :) There won't be another until 2006.

I feel like ass. My throat is all itchy and I took a four hour nap earlier. Maybe I can stay home tomorrow...

cutmein2pieces @ 2004-10-26T16:30:00

2004-10-26T20:32:35Z

Hrm. My sister is home agan...though that varies daily. Blah. I'm back to being a depressed kid. I got allergy tested today. That was shitty. I got poked and pricked with all kinds of needles. ew. I have an orchestra concert tonight. i'm first chair. hooray for me.

cutmein2pieces @ 2004-10-25T20:36:00

2004-10-26T00:40:42Z

My hair is purple/black. Weird. I had a Physics mid-term today. I think I did fairly well. It wasn't as hard as I thought it would be. Tomorrow, I get to check out early, because I have to go get allergy tested. Ew. But atleast no Physics. Woot! Oh yea, I also have an orchestra concert tomorrow. Plus, I get everyone's cookie dough, who ordered.
Things are going pretty good for me. Friday, Danielle spent the night and Ryan stopped by. Saturday, I dyed my hair and then I went to Jessie's grandma and watched little baby. >_< Sunday, We went to Stonecrest mall. That mall is the shit by the way. It's so much better than town center.
Luke ate lunch with us today. It was fantastic. I heart that kid. I thought I was going to cry I was laughing so hard. Plus, Heather was there and I thought she stayed home.

cutmein2pieces @ 2004-10-25T18:53:00

2004-10-25T23:01:37Z

took this off heather's journal- what boredom does to you... [16 Oct 2004|10:38pm]
1. studded belt + 2 points: 2
2. dyed black hair + 2 points: 1 ...its purpley red black :/
3. thick rimmed glasses + 2 points: 2
4. tight shirts/pants + 2 points each: 4

5. gaudy belt buckle + 2 points each: 0
6. clothing bought from a thrift store + 2 points: 0
7. having hair with bangs longer than the rest + 2 points: 2..well theyre spose to be longer as far as i know
8. trucker hats + 2 points: 2
9. messenger bag + 3 points: 3
10. livejournal/myspace/friendster account + 2 points each: 2
11. saucony/new balance/ converse shoes + 2 points per pair: 6
12. mountian climbing key thingy + 2 points: 0
13. X'd up mosh gloves + 10 points: 0
14. scarf + 2 points: 2
15. refering to bands as acronyms + 2 points: 2
16. vegan diet + 5 points: 0
17. vegetarian diet + for shame, no points: 0
18. food not bombs participation + 5 points: 0
19. straight edge + 5 points: 0
20. aspiring photographer + 3 points: 3
21. using adj from the late 80's/ early 90's (i.e. rad, gnarly, rockin', etc.) +1 point for each word in vernacular: atleast 5 lol
22. pins/buttons 1/2 point each: 0
23. plugs/body piercings + 2 points each: does that mean each??? 6

24. vinyl collection + 10 points: 0
25. moldy peaches fan + 10 points: 0
26. liking metal seriously - deduct 5 points: 0
27. liking metalcore + 5 points: 5
28. reading books over 300 pages long + 3 points: 3
39. riding a bike + 5 points: 0
30. participating in "the mosh" + 5 points: 0
31. tea aficianado + 5 points: 0
32. writing poetry + 5 points: 5
33. attended 50 shows or more in a year + 2 points: 0
34. attending hell fest + 5 points: 0
35. being in a band + 5 points: 0
36. working at an indie record store/health food store + 5 points: 0
37. clapping during midpaced part of a song + 5 points: 5

Total: 60 hahaha

0-24 - poser! get out or be forced out.
25-44 - beginner. attend more shows, buy more records, you'll be fine.
45-74 - scenester. you've been around awhile and you know what's up, good job.
75 - or more - GOD! I bow to thee with your knowledge of everything hardcore.

cutmein2pieces @ 2004-10-22T23:37:00

2004-10-23T03:38:47Z

This is an update. I have no life. Danielle is at mi casa. Ryan estaba a mi casa. (was at). Hey dear? Fuck you.

Love,
Emo <3

cutmein2pieces @ 2004-10-20T21:00:00

2004-10-21T01:01:56Z

Pac Sun called me today. They want me to come in for a SECOND interview. I didn't know there was such a thing. lol.

I went to Jessie's hizzy today. Woot! Plus, I made it through a whole day of school. Fancy that. <3

took this from danielle <3 woot

2004-10-19T23:44:18Z

x. [Wallet] this little asian zippy makeup type bag...i put all my stuff in it
x. [Hairbrush] silver one
x. [Toothbrush] blue purple and silver
x. [Jewelry Worn Daily] class ring, watch, the 3 hemp bracelets i can get off my other wrist, black ribbon around my neck...that counts right? and earrings and i always have the hoop in my cartiledge
x. [Blanket]my fuzzy one with moons and stars
x. [Facewash] clearasil something or another
x. [Coffee Cup] my tall penguin cup :)
x. [Sunglasses] black ones with rhinestones on each side
x. [Underwear] usually colorful lol
x. [Shoes] my converse or my black and pink sauconies sp?
x. [Favourite Shirt] I guess I'd have 2 say my product of the 80s shirt
x. [Favourite Pants] any jeans
x. [CD In Stereo Right Now] hmm allister, billy talent and starting line
x. [Tattoos] ooh not yet
x. [Piercings] ears, cartiladge
x. [What You Are Wearing Now] shorts and a white tee....cuz i slang in my white tee
x. [Hair] down and all in my face

x. [Smiled] lee and brittany being retarded
x. [Laughed] ^
x. [Cried] like 4 days ago
x. [Bought] cd i think
x. [Danced] not sure
x. [Were Sarcastic] constantly
x. [Last Book You Read] in the process of reading queen of the damned and timeline(for physics)
x. [Last Movie You Saw] day after tomorrow
x. [Last Thing You Had To Drink] lemonade
x. [Last Thing You Had To Eat] tacos

x. [What Do You Like Most About Your Body] my eyes
x. [And Least?] cant choose
x. [Do You Think You Are Good-Looking] i guess so
x. [Do people often tell you your good looking?] yea
x. [Do You Look Like Any Celebrities] I get Charlize Theron and the girl from Terminator 3 lol all the time

x. [Do You Wear A Watch] yea most of the time
x. [How Many Coats And Jackets Do You Own]a lot
x. [Favorite Pants Color] faded worn denim
x. [Most Expensive Item Of Clothing] good question dont know
x. [Describe Your Style In One Word] im special

x. [Do Your Friends Know You?] seems like that question kind of contradicts itself to me
x. [Are There Traits In You That Are Universally Liked?] yea id say so
x. [How Many People Do You Tell Everything To?] 1

x. [Favourite Band Ever] not sure raelly lol jump is good...green day as well..and yes danielel fall out boy is rad but so are deftones and ah cant choose just one
x. [Type of Music Most Listened To] HxC, scene-r-ific stuff ...same as dano
x. [Type Never Listened To] not sure
x. [Favourite Book?] the vampire lestat

x. [Sunny or Rainy Day] sunny
x. [Do You Consider Yourself Lucky] no lol
x. [Do You Feel Pity For People Who Commit Suicide] no
x. [Choose One Word To Describe How You Most Often Feel] emo lol
x. [Do You Own Plaid Clothing] yea actually i think i do
x. [Is There More Than One Zipper On Your Pants] im waering shorts...
x. [Do You Own Braces] no
x. [Does Your Hairstyle Exceed A Height Of Three Inches] negatory
x. [Would You Classify Your Hair As A Deadly Weapon] haha no
x. [Do You Have A Favorite Brand Of Hair Dye] nope
x. [Do You Own A Bandana] yeah.
x. [Are You Amused By Safety Pins] yea
x. [Have You Ever Used Duct Tape As A Sewing Substitute] if ya cant duck it fuck it
x. [Do You Like Candles] <3
x. [Do You Believe In Love] i guess so
x. [Do You Believe In Soul Mates] undecided
x. [Do You Believe In Love At First Sight] no..i agree w/ danoi blieve in chemirty at first sight
x. [What Do You Want Done With Your Body When You Die] eaten by worms lol
x. [What Are You Gonna Do When You Get Older]i plan on being a doctor
x. [What Band Are You Listening To] afi
x. [Look Out Your Window... Tell Me What You See] the driveway
x. [If You Could Have Any Animal For A Pet] O EM GEE YOU GUYS A PENGUIN <3333
x. [What Is The Longest You Ever Stayed Up] like 2 days or three

x. [Are You Disgruntled]yea lol
x. [Are You An Anarchist?] no
x. [Do You Smoke Cigarettes?] mmm...
x. [Are You A Vegetarian?] sometimes lol
x. [Do You Think Meat Is Murder] kinda
x. [Have You Ever Slept In An Alley Or Park] neagtive
x. [Do You Wash Your Hair Less Than Once A Week] .....no.
x. [Have You Ever Gone A Week Without A Shower?] no

x. [Number] 27
x. [Color] pink
x. [Day] saturday
x. [Month]i like the fall and winter...october november and december
x. [Song] ot sure
x. [Movie] Jump-Mexico
x. [Food] mexican
x. [Class] orchestra <3
x. [Teacher] coach hamburg and mr smith
x. [Drink] sweet tea and dr pepper
x. [Veggie] broccoli
x. [Television Show] the oc x 500, real world, battle of the sexes
x. [Radio] 96.7 99.7
x. [Store] pac sun by far
x. [Word] pwned as in chu got pwned :)
x. [Animal] PENGUIN <3
x. [Flower] tulips

cutmein2pieces @ 2004-10-19T14:12:00

2004-10-19T18:27:09Z

Stole this :P
BASICS:
1. have you ever had a song written about you? not that i know of
2. what song makes you cry? not sure
3. what song makes you happy? girls just wanna have fun
4. what do you like to listen to before you go to bed? nothin in perticular
5. height: 5'4
6. hair color: Brownish
7. skin color: white
8. eye color: Blue
9. piercings: ears, should have my nose eventually
10. tattoos: not yet
11. what color pants are you wearing? pink pjs
12. what song are you listening to? Afi- silver and cold
13. what taste is in your mouth? hot pocket
14. what's the weather like? storming
15. how are you? itchy and bored
16. get motion sickness? not always
17. have a bad habit? a couple
18. get along with your parents? sometimes

FAVORITES:
19. tv show: The OC, Real World, and Battle of the Sexes
20. conditioner: herbal essence
21. book: the vampire chronicles...its 4 books
22. non-alcoholic drink: sweet tea
23. alcoholic drink: smirnoff twist green apple vodka. mix it with sprite and taste like jolly ranchers mmm
24. things to do on the weekend: relax, hang out with friends, party sometimes

HAVE YOU:
25. broken the law: yes
26. ran away from home: nope
27. snuck out of the house: me adn friend's have snuck out of their house if that counts...many many times
28. gone skinny dipping: few times
29. made a prank phone call: lots
30. ever tipped over a porta potty: cant say that i have
31. used your parents credit card before: nope
32. skipped school before: nope
33. fell asleep in the shower/bath? yea
34. been in a school play: kinda it was one of those things where the whole grade sings and then a group of people get up and do something...in like 3rd grade

LOVE:
35. girlfriend/boyfriend: yea
36. sexuality: straight
37. children: in time
38. current crush: >_<
39. been in love: not so sure
40. had a hard time getting over someone: only one person
41. been hurt: many times
42. your greatest regret: have a few
43. gone out with someone you only knew for three days: 3 days? no

RANDOM:
44. do you have a job? no
45. your cd player has in it right now: glassjaw
46. if you were a crayon what color would you be? that cerulean blue or whatever they call it...it's rad
47. what makes you happy: lots of thngs...i have a list lol right dano
48. the last time you got a real letter: Jessie when she still lived in indiana
49. the last tv program you watched: maury....bleh daytime tv

cutmein2pieces @ 2004-10-19T14:08:00

2004-10-19T18:11:40Z

Grr. My teacher is retarded. He called my dad and left a messaging saying I had like 4 unexcused absences and he thought I was skipping. Which ya know, that would be fine and dandy if I actually was skipping. I haven't ever skipped....but since I'm already being accused of it... d00d. i stayed home today. It was rad. Ryan came and saw me sunday >_< I have homework that was due today that I need to do. lol. I had some allergic reaction to somethin and now my face is itchy and red. ew.

cutmein2pieces @ 2004-10-12T15:52:00

2004-10-12T19:53:41Z

Happy Birthday Michael Jordan!

I love the secrets song. It has to best cello part. I'm in love.

cutmein2pieces @ 2004-10-11T18:44:00

2004-10-12T01:45:01Z

I'm starting to fashion an idea in my head
where I would impress you
with every single word I said.
Would come out insightful or brave or smooth or charming
and you'd want to call me
And I would be there every time
you'd need me
I'd be there every time...
But for now I'll look so longingly
waiting...
For you to want me, for you to need me, for you to notice me

I totally have a cootie shot. lol.

2004-10-10T22:12:27Z

Hrm. Friday, Danielle spent the night. Me, her and my mum went to the mall and I got my hair cut all off by a guy named Joey. lol. It's a sign. lol. Saturday, we woke up at like 10:30 and went shoppin with my mom and I got a new bed spread. It's purty. Then, Tim came over. It was fun stuff. <3 Brittany came over later. She spent the night. I had McDonalds. mmmm. yummy. Today I woke up at like 8:30. ew. We went to church and met up with Tim there. It was fun. Brittany was getting mad about her feet. haha. oh d00d! i have superman shorts. okay anyways...i took a 3 hours nap. haha when i just type took...first i accidently typed toke. well..... yea i definitely have no hair. I cut off 8 or 9 inches. If i weighted a month i could've donated it to Locks of Love which would have been sweet but I couldnt take it anymore. lol. I want to be a ninja turtle on halloween.

Baby chicken abortions!

2004-10-08T20:50:26Z

In PE my shoe rubbed my foot, but I couldn't stop running because it was a timed run thing. Bummer. I got a huge blister on the side of my foot that bled on my sock. ew.

Today in Physics, we got to drop our egglanders. My chicken fetus survived!!!! Woo! But then I squeezed my egg and got my fetus' juice all over my hand. Ew.

I think I'm gunna cut my hair off. I want to. I haven't cut it in a little over a year. Fun stuff.

Meat's no treat for those you eat. <3

I wear socks on my head and dance around in my underwear to Bon Jovi <3

2004-10-07T22:54:10Z

Danielle made my journal pretty. <3 Thank you, Love.

Yea, I definitely want the piano music for Avenged Sevenfold - warmness on the soul. And I don't want to clean my room. Hrm.

This week has gone by so fast. I went to church yesterday. Got Michael to go with Danielle and I. -lol- It was fun though. I <3 that church.

Grrr... I want something corporate sheet music too. Yep. This week has gone by really fast. Maybe because I have nothing to look forward to this weekend, because I am a loser. lol. I have nobody. *sigh* Just my Dano. Not allowed to be with my other friends and just can't be with certain people I want to be with.

I burnt my tongue... not cool. I finished To Kill A Mockingbird today. That's a good book.

cutmein2pieces @ 2004-10-06T23:26:00

2004-10-07T03:25:58Z

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lol.rad.

cutmein2pieces @ 2004-10-04T08:40:00

2004-10-04T12:46:16Z

I stayed home today. It is goin to be rockin. I get to sit around all day and listen to music and be emo. Hooray for me.

Firsts
First job: Elyssa's dad's work
First screen name: i dont even know
First funeral: grandpa...
First pet: a fish maybe...no wait i think it was a parakeet...or a cat. i dont know. they were all here at the same time
First piercing: ears
First tattoo: none
First credit card: nope
First kiss: Ha. That was hilarious.
First enemy: Don't Know
First favorite musician: Billy Ray Cyrus- Dude I would swing that achey breaky heart song like it was goin outta style

Lasts
Last car ride: mom...way back from media play
Last kiss: :( joey...
Last movie watched: Godsend :( w/ ^
Last beverage drank: pink gatorade...good stuff
Last food consumed: um...i think i ate oatmeal this morning
Last phone call: danielle. she is my only friend now.
Last time showered: about an hour and a half ago
Last CD played: The Shins
Last website visited: livejournal

Now
Single or Taken: single b/c people like to screw people over all the time
Sex: female
Birthday: 9/27
Sign: libra
Siblings: a brother and a sister
Hair color: um brown/blonde/goldish/i dont realyl know what you'd call it
Eye color: blue
Shoe size: 5
Height: 5'4

cutmein2pieces @ 2004-10-02T23:11:00

2004-10-03T03:13:05Z

Exhausted beyond repair
Stripped of all I had
Forced to die inside
Nw Ibreathe a renewed Life
I is now I see without my eyes
If this is what it takes
To bring me to my knees
Then feed me pain until
I realize I am but a slave
Remind me of my need for You
Remind me of who I am

Emptiness running through me
Taking all that i am
Leaving me this blinding mask
Grasping for the wind
Everything I've done
Everything I've gained
It all means nothing
A mere breath has passed away
Sadness I embrace
Left with empty promises
I look at myself and see the scars
That are brought to me by this life
Then I ask myself
Is that all this world has to give
The chase is over I am finished
Stripped of every reason I cry out to You
From my knees I scream

This blood turned into tears
A broken heart runs my body
Dripping forth until I give my life
I have become a sacrifice
It hurts me just to think of you
I void the pain that is unbarring
(To know that I take these sufferings from you)

cutmein2pieces @ 2004-10-02T12:42:00

2004-10-02T16:47:27Z

god i'm lovin it. i'm not allowed to hang out with my best friend. my other good friend just left and i don't know for how long. i get my hopes lifted way up and then fuckin squished on....squished like hell. so i have no one. only danielle. no one else. yea danielle member the pastor talking about rejection. yea. THINGS COULDNT GET ANYMORE WONDERFUL!!!!....only not.
and I am SO fucking tired of people saying shit because of my age. All my friends (or ex-friends since im not allowed to hang out with them anymore) are older than me and i get ragged on alllll the time. The person I like says he now has a problem with my age...though its stayed the same pretty much. why cant i just be old lol. My birthday was awesome though! A little too awesome...seeing as how all it did was bring my hopes up...or a certain someone did! ass. i went to swayzes yesterday. Say Whole Nine and One Way Letter. It was rockin. lol. Well, I'm waitin for Jessie to call me...or her mom call mine. SO MAYBE i can hang out with her. This is all just going so downhill.

cutmein2pieces @ 2004-09-30T21:51:00

2004-10-01T01:53:33Z

You Are Meatwad

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cutmein2pieces @ 2004-09-28T15:56:00

2004-09-28T19:57:34Z

simply amazing

cutmein2pieces @ 2004-09-22T19:28:00

2004-09-22T23:30:27Z

I wish I could tell you
But the words would come out wrong
Oh if you only knew
The way I felt for so long
I know that we're worlds apart
But I just don't seem to care
These feelings in my heart
Only with you I want to share

The first time I caught a glimpse of you
Then my thoughts were only of you

I hope that when time goes by
You will think the same about me
Many nights awake I lie
I only wish that you could see
I know that we're only friends
I hope this feeling never ends
If I could only hold you
It's the only thing I want to do.

The first time I caught a glimpse of you
Then my thoughts were only of you

cutmein2pieces @ 2004-09-19T18:27:00

2004-09-19T22:28:18Z

My birthday is in 8 days. It's a celebration bitches!!!

cutmein2pieces @ 2004-09-16T19:41:00

2004-09-16T23:41:39Z

I'd never lie to you
Unless I had to
I'll do what I got to
Unless I had to
I'll do what I go to, the truth
is you could slit my throat
And with my one last gasping breath
I'd apologize for bleedin on your shirt